Some things never leave you. I’m not sure I’ll ever stop feeling like I should have never been born. Like I have no right to be alive.
I remember learning about the Hindu reincarnation cycle, and how if you repeatedly live in a high caste your soul will transcend to a higher plane that is, simply, nothingness. In western culture this kind of thing is thought scary and difficult to comprehend, and yet we do say ignorance is bliss.